Figuring things out....

For some time I've been tossed back and forth with how I want to decorate my house.

Pottery Barn Style

 

European Style

 

Vintage Mix

Then there is the choice of which colors I want to use.

Black, Grey, Reds, Browns....White, Cream, Sage...

I drive myself crazy trying to figure it out...and I have been having the worst time ever making up my mind.

I've been wondering why I can't get motivated to just go for it and make this house a home...actually it was somewhat the same in the other house we lived in too....just a shell with people living in it, half decorated.  I start with one style, then change it, and then change it again.. never sticking to one long enough to make an impact.

Then BAM! it hit me.

I think it's because investing in making a House into a HOME scares me.
See, the last time I put my whole self and ideas and styles into a home, it was torn down and left in ruin.

I spent many years just kinda surviving and trying to find myself again...and then I met the most wonderful man in the world and have never been so happy as I am now.

Realizing that I am vulnerable was not easy to acknowledge, but necessary.
God has allowed me to heal slowly one step at a time and has given me the most understanding and amazing friend in my husband.  He is my safe place to land...he is my HOME.

SO, room by room, and moment by moment I plan to press on and make this house we are in our HOME.